This happened:

I met Jade at the co-op a few months ago.  Then he left town until early this month.  When he was gone we Skyped a LOT.  This guy speaks my language!  That’s not typical. Our friendship grew and blossomed and we become close and a deep trust formed between us.

I feel resistance to sharing this because I’ve been bombarded with feedback and advice and suggestions and everyone elses’ opinions when it comes to men and relationships (especially what they think I need and don’t need and want and don’t want and how I am supposed to feel or should feel or do feel) for the past 7 months or so.  It’s been draining.

When I tune in and center myself in my heart, I get the suggestions and advice and all of that from my truth.  I choose to follow that, and to, as Jade is amazing at reminding me of, stay in the loving MOMENT.  

And to give you an idea of what this is like:  I’m more transparent and open with him (and he with me) with emotions, feelings, etc… and that means the loving ones AND the ones that are here to help us process through our crap… the fears, insecurities, worries, all of that… than I am on this blog.

In this loving moment, this is a pretty cool connection we have.  We are exploring what it is ~ staying in the moment ~ allowing what is to unfold.

Peace ♥ Bliss

And here’s his official website:  UPLIFT the world and check it out!  www.chasebinnie.com

Back story: I saw that Rara Avis was teaching a class for digital music production and that sounded cool, so I inquired.  I already had a couple CDs that Rara remixed, so I’d heard of him.  I didn’t know he lived in Ashland (lots of cool people live here.)   Since I wasn’t sure whether or not this class would be a good fit for me, I asked him to contact me so I could feel it out better.  When he called, I was amazed by the brilliance of his light.  He was more than helpful and even gave me some suggestions of how to feel more a part of the Ashland community.  SO, I definitely support the things he does.  Not only are they divinely inspired, but he truly embodies a lot of beautiful light and shares it with an open heart.

Rara and a couple of his friends started a YogiTunes which I’ve found to be a great resource for not only yoga practitioners and teachers, but also those in the healing arts (massage, Reiki, etc…)  I highly recommend you check out his site.  They keep you posted about all new yoga-type music either daily, weekly, or monthly, and they have a community page you can join.  Definitely a new-paradigm kind of website!!

Thanks, Rara!!

www.yogitunes.com

I met Elspeth and instantly felt a strong connection.  We are both Kundalini Yoga Teachers and Artists.  Elspeth is brilliant.  She is one of the most inspiring and creative people I know, even though we’ve never met face to face!  She is truly a shining example of putting yourself out into the world–not just a part of yourself, but your complete, authentic Self.  And she continues to create from inspirations and ideas that come to and through her.  Frankly, she’s so cool!  So check out what she’s up to at  www.nowiswowtoo.blogspot.com.

Just be Yourself.  That’s all anyone really wants from you, because deep down, they want to know it’s okay to be who they are, too.

And hey! If you have a project or new business or just feel like inspiring people, let me know what you’re up to.  I’d love to share your beautiful creativity, too!

So there’s a little teaser for ya!  Google away friends, google away.

Oh and don’t forget to PLAY, people!  Laugh, dance, sing, jump around.  While running, why pass over the hop-scotches kids have drawn just for YOU on the sidewalk.  Hop, skip, and jump away!

Love and Might and Sparkles and Light!

(After this my blog may become more focused – or – less random.  Not sure though, because you know, living in the moment is taking up all my time.  I don’t even know what day it is 98% it).  ~~~ More may be written here about the whole “Time” thing, too!

Breathe, Laura, Breathe.  I tell my Thai Massage clients all the time, “Breathe through.”  Because all that is happening is that I am noticing where some stuck energy is.  My body feels it and my mind has latched onto it.  Why does the mind do this?  Well, it knows how to do it and when it is latched onto something, or grabbing at something, it feels comfortable~as though it is serving a purpose.  It certainly is serving a purpose, but my question is, “Does this serve my Higher Purpose?”  Two answers: No, and Yes.  Haha!  Yes because it is creating a space for my awareness of this issue.  I can now go in, concentrate so fully on the emotional charges I experience at these points of blocked energy that they dissipate, or dissolve, as I send love to them.  No because it isn’t me.  However, to ignore the emotions coming up would simply allow them to sit there stagnant, to build and blow up at what would probably be a most inopportune moment.  And I would not be able to fully experience Life as we all have come here to do.

So, let me say that I am grateful and at peace with my processing.  I love myself for my ability to understand what is going on, and I love myself for my ability to share this with others so openly.  Just this act of being transparent basically makes my “problems” seem like tiny little dots on the giant picture that Love paints, and the dots become part of this Love.

I offer my guidance to help you over the little speed bumps on your journey, too.  Please visit the Offerings section of my website: www.lauracanderson.net for more information.  Sessions can be done over the phone, Skype, or in person.  Blessings to you on your path!

It’s time to fly
Oh wings of mine
You’ve been closed up so tight
But I jumped the ledge
No way back down
Now we must take flight
~~
Like the Fool I blindly see the truth inside of me
I watched my life through crooked eyes of the box I let me be
No no no… it’s time to breathe… free
~~
It’s time to fly
Oh wings of mine
You’ve been closed up so tight
But I jumped the ledge
No way back down
Now we must take flight
~~
These clumsy wings remember me before I landed here
I know they’ll fly just as soon as I trust all that I hold dear
My my my…. Love erases all I fear
~~
It’s time to fly
Oh wings of mine
You’ve been closed up so tight
But I jumped the ledge
No way back down
Now we must take flight
~~
Chasing nothing all my life . . . has been a blessing until now
Sitting static in this world . . . I watched my spirit slowly die
I heard a calling in the wind . . . I felt a yearning deep inside
I see the question in your eyes . . . It’s time for us to fly
~~
It’s time to fly
Oh wings of mine
You’ve been closed up so tight
But I jumped the ledge
No way back down
Now we must take flight
~~
My heart’s open wide and my eyes are too as I freefall through the air
Doubts fall down and I start to rise as I see what’s all out there
I I I…can do whatever I dare
~~
It’s time to fly
Oh wings of mine
You’ve been closed up so tight
But I jumped the ledge
No way back down
Now we must take flight

Go with what your heart knows.  That’s what it’s all about.  And nothing–nothing–you do is wrong.

That’s a load of crap.  (Apologies for the bluntness, but truly, it is).

The old way is crushing.  Crushing.  Some people are okay with that.  I happen to not be one of those people.  My latest example: I work as a Caregiver for a beautiful soul.  However, I have had the last three weeks off.  The moment my client called me to come back, I felt my body retract into itself, as though this bright, large, joyful aura that had been building said, “Nope! Can’t be that light and bright now, that’s not how the old way works, so I’m going to get in my little turtle shell and hide.”  This reaction has absolutely nothing, and I mean nothing, to do with my client.  This person has so much to offer the world and so much love.  It is me that needs to break free from all restriction on this aura/soul/spirit/creativity that I Am.

Now I am finding a couple reactions going on.  My body feels tight, and like maybe I could throw up.  My mind is reeling… how is it going to work, how how how how how will I pay for things: food, rent, gas, etc… how how HOW.  And I am noticing that most of these needs-to-know-how are not my needs-to-know-how… they are borrowed concerns from others: people who care about me, people I care about, society… I’m so tired of “HOW.”

Once my mom said to me: “Maybe you don’t need to know right now…”  about something when I was in college.  That flipped this little, tiny switch in my head that started getting me out of the depression and anxiety I dealt with in college.  How?  You know what?  “How” doesn’t matter, all that matters is “What,” and then life has a way of figuring out the “how” for you, as long as you let it.

~~~~Fast Forward an hour and a half:

And I just had a very en~light~ening conversation with my client.  We are moving forward in a way that I hadn’t thought of… see, the HOW isn’t always up to us, but somehow it always finds us, doesn’t it?

So are you ready?  Because we knew it was coming.  It counted to 100 for us even.  Well, the counting’s done, and here it comes!

I’m excited!!!  And I don’t even know what “it” is!